Road

Sun was setting in the west

N' the Moon was risin' in the East

Hangin' on the timeline with you babe

Ridin', I felt like a Beast.

Dragnflies criss-crossing

Toads croaking n' jumping, wilderness hissin'

on the broken road between the woods,

Shudderingly, embracing and kissin'

The Mother Nature

Such a beauty from far

fierce when close

sharp razor and blades all along,

were cutting our shoulders n' elbows

In dark, the doors behind closed

We see only as far as the headlight goes

Few passers-by were like spirits n' ghosts

No matter how bumpy it was

It kept on pullin' us and we gave in

Such was the nature of the Road

Hills in clouds, inviting in the day

were haunting and deadly at night

And the closer we wanted to come

The farther they went from the sight

Nothing

Whatever I think

just sums up to nothing.

Whichever way I link

thoughts vanish in a blink

disguised power of reason

always rushes to find something

It has been always a circle

but what to do about that itching

to find something of meaning

but there is none, it's a trap

trickery played by life's lap.

nothing has meaning, must be true

Nothing Has Meaning, must be true

गुड़िया

तुझे गोद में उठाऊँगा

तुझे कंधे पे ले जाऊँगा 

मैं तुझे आइस क्रीम खिलाऊँगा

तेरी हर बात मानूँगा

और तेरे साथ घर-घर खेलूँगा

तू मेरी सबसे पूरानी दोस्त 

मेरी जादू की पूडिया

बस एक बार, एक बार 

तू फिर से छोटी हो जा गुड़िया

तुझे बहुत सारी डॉल दिलाऊँगा

ज़्यादा कुछ देने को नहीं मेरे पास लाडो

और ना ही किसी को मैं तुझे दूँगा

ग़लती माफ़ करना बहना

तेरी चोटी नहीं खींचूँगा और ना झूला छीनून्गा

ना चोक्स्लएम दूँगा, कभी नही रुलाऊँगा

लंडन्स्टॅयानी और शम्पन्शौन्ता को भाषा बना लूँगा

सच मानो लड्डू, तू मेरी जादू की पूडिया

बस एक बार, एक बार 

तू फिर से छोटी हो जा गुड़िया

Beast

I like watching Eagles in the sky

When the clouds are dark

Land is dry.

I run and swing my hands to try

To reach high in the wilderness

And scream from above and give a loud cry

So filled with thrill I want to be

That the thing inside me tries to tear my body

And I dance high as it tries to come to be.

Yea, Eagles in the sky

And my eyes pierce the ground as lasers

And my fingers become claws as sharp razors

And say this to everyone and I

Do you, YOU, feel like I do?

Swirling in the sky with friends

I want to scream and flap till we change trends

With our claws front, lasers and flaps

We want all the earthlings to clap

Clap n clap and say together to you

Do you, YOU, really feel like I do?

Feathers flutter and our eyes glitter

Then we look at each other

Ha Ha... And the whirlwind inside or outside

Which one is greater?

Answer me answer me (motherfucker)

Which one is greater?

Slow is all the motion as a wand of creator

Let's not care, not care and dare

To be Beasts

To be who really are we

Let the thing inside blow our body

And smash out from all that's shady

Now everyone is at par

And we all have come so far

But keep on flapping my friends,

Your wings dear Earthlings

Enter the lost world

Was so loud inside

Here it's calm and light with no fear

where everything is clear

Stand alone and be free

But we are all bounded by this feeling of Beastiality

Howl out loud beautifully

Do you, YOU, feel like I do!

Zang Zang Zang...

I really can’t understand what is happening. Random Thoughts… just random. There is soft (not kinky) chaos in the head. Memories are coming like flashes, images. Images of Institute library when I enter the office, Sac when I sit in the park near my apartment, Trip from Kanpur to Delhi when I am in metro, David Lynch Movies when I got to Itaewon, Facebook comments, cellphone (as I have to buy one and you know what Apple iPhone ki MKB)Last night blast, L7 when… Actually I am not getting what I am thinking, it’s difficult to even write but I have to write it in order to unload my thoughts and start with my job work.

Subconsciously, I am at unrest, I am shaking my legs, teeth peeling the skin from my fingers, looking here and there with sleepy eyes like a spy and there is silence. Anneyohaseyo, Meet Silence!! I can just hear taps on keyboard, printer, crusher, roaring drawers, murmurs as if it is coming from a long distance and the sound is on the verge of extinction. It’s like, even the sound is making effort to breach that silence, like silence is succumbing sound to death!! After a long pause if the telephone bell rings, it goes on like anneyohaseyo, haseyou, aupseyo, ain, ye, O… O… O… and that’s it, Game’s over, HangOver!! The disk is stuck in the system and it’s creaking.

A moment comes when people suddenly stand and walk across the office, to different cabins, to the elevator, to Restrooms, to VP’s room. I mean did they all stood up for an interlinked purpose? No!! it’s randomness just randomness and the belief on this randomness becomes strong when I see the charts on my screen. Collective sentiments are so chaotic but only few people drive the market. Now, I am feeling a bit better. See!! how strangely I came to my job talk but I don’t have to stop because the focus Is important and I want to remove even the tiniest noisy cable from the electrical construct inside my head.

People here look like a product from a machine, flat and packed nicely so no doubt there is consumerism disease in this place. The lady at my left is writing on a paper since last 15 minutes Ohh God!! and  Ohh no… Hold On, One Sec… it coming back.. Ohhh Shit…(long pause) and I am in the hole again, why the sound of an Indian train… why?? The world is so interconnected by technology but I didn’t get even a single chance to hear or see any Indian Rail or even a sound resembling that in these 3 months. Then Why, Why that Honk?? Let me turn right and see the mountains. There are buildings and mountains behind them but what I interestingly noticed that everyone is Just looking at their screens. It’s becoming hellish, zombieland… I think I should leave writing it’s not helping anymore.

Left Educated to cry over the ignorance of others and,
remained foolish to praise the beauty around us.

Epitaph

If I could fly,

speak into the ear of God,

 the task He gave me and He applauds.

If I could say hi,

To the souls who inspired me,

My well wishers above, looking at me.

If I could dance,

At the beats of my Love’s heart

And live together even after being apart.

If I could play,

For one last time with my friends

And always be the Hero for my children.

If I could cry,

Like a baby in a cradle,

To ride the toy horse on saddle

If I could try,

To fly in the universe,

Pluck a star and fix it in the hair bun of Hers

If I could pray,

To forgive me for all my mistakes,

Oh God!!

If I could stay,

On the lap of my mother, one last time

My father singing, jingles and rhyme

If there is only truth

 and I couldn’t lie

If I could live,

And if I could happily say Bye,

When I die.